Ahh... before when I was having a self-worth depression phase again (i.e. just a day or time when I suddenly feel like I'm nothing special & that I am alone and should just give up, happens few times every month orz) I told my sister I would make a list of things I like about myself and things I'm good at, but never got around to that...
So here I am. :B
I should have done this months ago but ehh...
Also, I always feel like I should explain myself to not sound so.. conceited?
I'm not, I really am not. I don't think highly of myself. I think quite lowly of myself. (´・ω・`)So the following list is a sort of really embarrassing to write out... -sigh-
I dunno, to me, all my skills in various things are just average. They're just me-level. They are a level which I am not satisfied with. But I have others saying "you're good at x stop doubting yourself!!"
Uh, here I go then.
Warning: There are things here some probably won't understand as they are internet-y and geeky. I'm sorry.
Under a cut because it's wordy and long because. But there are pictures? XD
1. I make fairly good grades. `u`; I strive to do my best. I wanna be the very best, that no one ever waaaaas~ 8D I mean I did well on the SAT and PSAT according to my family & friends, but not up to my standards.
2. Apparently I can draw nice. I don't do anything other than anime & cutesy things, though:
(all of this I drew digitally with a tablet, btw. traditionally like with pencil or pen, I'm not good orz. also: all of these are doodles, I can do so much better buuut I don't have any recent non-doodles...!)
I can draw well enough to where people pay me to draw things for them, lol. ;w;
3. I write fairly well? ;w; I've gotten comments on here about my writing (thank you, all of you~ ♥), and additionally I've been told I roleplay pretty well so my writing can't be that horrid...
plus my old fanfic has nice reviews I guess. ;u;
4. Um.... I know how to HTML/CSS. (If you don't know what HTML/CSS is, it's basically how a webpage is made. Right click and hit "View Source", and that's it. Yeah, I understand that. XD) I could write a simple webpage off the top of my head right now but I don't want to. :D I have designed many websites before but nowadays I am mostly lazy and find simplicity better. (One, it loads faster and two, too many graphics kill the eyes. I didn't realize that when I was 14.)
5. I can play the piano fairly decently... ? I mean, I don't take lessons anymore, because I don't really have anything left to learn. You can put most any piece in front of me and I can play it without having to ask "what is this symbol" or whatnot. Errr I have a sample of me playing somewhere...
Ah, here it is.
Oh, Mei-san, you're so sweet and priceless! Your gifts in the arts are amazing! Lovely piano playing!
ReplyDeleteNext time I see you, and barely anyone is around in the lunch hall, you're going to sing a little tidbit of whatever. I'm now curious. :3
Better question is what can't you do?
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