Standardized testing musings (and tips :P)

Alrighty. So I will take some time (or maybe a lot of time, idk, I always write too much) to ramble on about standardized testing. If you don't know what standardized testing is, then:

Um, where have you been your whole academic life?

You know what it is. Long hours of sitting there and doing nothing but filling in bubbles for things you should have already learned in normal classes. I.e. taking a test you've been studying for but didn't know you were studying for. Writing in your full name, first in little squares (one box per letter!) and then filling in the correct bubbles underneath, along with birthday, grade, ethnicity, gender, and all sorts of other official stuff.

Ring a bell?

If not, this entry may or may not be of help to you, depending on whether you plan to take the tests or not. Either way. :V I'm gonna write about them. What a boring life I live. Writing blog entries on tests, ha. (Well, it was either this or chem homework. It's too early for me to think about balancing chemical equations, so here I am.)

Most of you I guess are probablyyyy high school juniors or sophomores. So you should already know what I'm talking about when I mention the ACT, SAT, or SAT II tests. Mmhmm, fun. I'm a senior myself, so I'm pretty much done with the testing process. While it is against SAT/ACT rules to talk about the test itself to anybody (even other takers of the same test), I will muse a bit on my experiences taking them and maybe you can learn from those yourself! c:

Warning, this is going to be long, I can already tell. OTL
Nobody has to read any of this, but if you do, you can skip sections to what you're interested in. The PSAT, the ACT, the SAT. Or just the tips at the end.

either way, my brain is exhausted.

Here I am writing my blog entry because I don't want to do other schoolwork at the moment. Ehe...
Welp, I got through my ACT, and it's... eh.
The english and essay sections were so easy...
Except for the reading, it was easier than the math & sciences, but but not as easy as the essay and english stuffs.
Science would have been okay, but they used so many science-y terms, it took forever to read/understand...
Math just. XD Oh man. I skipped anything that involved sin/cos/tan & functions. I just can't math. D: What kind of Asian am I.

Tomorrow's Thursday. :V Usually my have-fun day since I like most of my classes on that day but for some reason I feel oddly nervous! Why. I don't even have that much homework.

The harvest party thing is on Friday, but I'm not going, lol.
I'm going to stay home as usual on my computer...
I really don't feel like writing much right now... I'm hungry and have a headache.

Time for random writing.

The email I use for this blog is lovelost.elegy@gmail.com ha, based on this song.
I just like all the songs by this composer. They're catchy. ヾ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ
I know how to sing this song, but I'm normally to scared to really sing it out since I am afraid of being loud.
But the fast part in the middle is really really fun to singgg~ And it's in my range, hooray!
Also yes I know it's a bit of a depressing song...? All of the composers songs are like this though. But I like looking at how to interpret this kind of thing. Maybe that's why I like his songs so much. Catchy tune + open to interpretation. I don't know how to interpret this one myself, though.

The girl and the boy somehow separate then the boy falls into some kind of state she has to save him from? Who knows. @A@

Weh. I want to learn an English version too, because some of the English versions out there are pretty bomb. |D Maybe I will post some singing on here sooner or later.

TIME FOR another spam of doodles I do while in Modern lit/during lunch/during math/during Japanese, yes? It hath been too long. I planned to post them every week but I kept getting lazy. XD

Musings on future happenings?

Well I owe my blog a post for last week actually, but I'll write this week's after my silly ACT test! That's on Sunday. I am only slightly deathly afraid! I mean, that one test isn't going to determine my future. I just know it'll help a lot if I do well. So I'm a bit er...

Scatterbrained these last two weeks. Awful. @A@
But!
Hopefully I will do well on it. No. I will do well on it, and I'll cry of happiness then go and thank my best friend for paying for my study book by drawing her pictures until my right hand falls off.

Then go back to studying for the normal SAT. Ugh. How will I do it.......
Mariah (or was it Mrs. Schneider?) asked me how I'm doing it all. Taking like 11 classes, I mean. I don't really know. I just am...? I am dying under it all, though. But it's all for the good of things, right?

Hmm... I'm sort of sad I only got to stay at Homelink so long. Only a year and a half-ish. And I'm going to college out of state (well at least I hope so, my top colleges are both in Massachusetts so we'll see), I wouldn't be able to visit often either.... probably just... fly back to bring Yuka & crew to Anime Central. -shrugs- Depends on the schedule! But I'll miss everyone. ; ~ ;

Speaking of Anime Central...
Why is the date this year so wonky? Why you do this coordinators. It's from April 27-29 I believe, which is yes, a weekend, but not a weekend where I'm already on summer vacation. Which worries me.

Then guess what else?!

Prom is on April 26.

And I'm required to go to prom, says my mom. And I kinda do wanna go so I can get my hanfu. A hanfu is a traditional Chinese garb worn typically by noble females in China during the Han Dynasty. Hence HANfu. It's a beautiful garment and I have wanted one forever but they're expensive, so I figured, hey, girls spend a bunch on their prom dresses right? So could I be a bit different and spend about the same amount on a lovely piece of clothing I would use more than just once?

Because yes, I think my mom would let me go to prom in a hanfu. Well, when I asked, she sort of maybe-nodded. Yuka said I would stand out but it's just one night right? And my hanfuuuu! Want so badly. Although Mariah said, and I quote, I would "look hot". 8| What. Definitely not what I was going for, but thanks nevertheless. What I want is elegance and oriental-ity I guess. `w` Use my looking of Chinese to my advantage! Then maybe once prom is done I will take the outfit and do pretty photoshoots in it when I have confidence. Yes.

( this is the hanfu I showed Mariah. XD I would get one that didn't really drag on the floor, though )

I seem to have gotten off subject...

But if prom is April 26 then that means we have to probably miss the Friday con day. Not so bad, but still my sads, I don't like missing any con days.... But ah well. Saturday is where it's at anyways. My sister doesn't know who to go as, but I'm probably gonna still choose Taiwan & maybe one other character. Perhaps Hikari from Pokemon if my sister wants to go as Touko that badly. :3c

( Hikari is the one under Spring, Touko the one under Autumn ~ )

And there's my 20 minutes!

Hooray~

Time to sleep or something...

a post in which I only say positive things about myself...?

Ahh... before when I was having a self-worth depression phase again (i.e. just a day or time when I suddenly feel like I'm nothing special & that I am alone and should just give up, happens few times every month orz) I told my sister I would make a list of things I like about myself and things I'm good at, but never got around to that...

So here I am. :B
I should have done this months ago but ehh...
Also, I always feel like I should explain myself to not sound so.. conceited?
I'm not, I really am not. I don't think highly of myself. I think quite lowly of myself. （´・ω・｀）So the following list is a sort of really embarrassing to write out... -sigh-

I dunno, to me, all my skills in various things are just average. They're just me-level. They are a level which I am not satisfied with. But I have others saying "you're good at x stop doubting yourself!!"

Uh, here I go then.
Warning: There are things here some probably won't understand as they are internet-y and geeky. I'm sorry.
Under a cut because it's wordy and long because. But there are pictures? XD

This is probably going to sound very abnormal to all of you.

(Warning this post is very long and flashback-like. If you want to skip to just how my day was, scroll downnnn)

Before I begin, let me explain.
I have a... somewhat bad case of social anxiety. ;w;
What's that, you ask?
Um... to put it in a nutshell, social situations make me uncomfortable or overly nervous.
That's the main reason I chose to homeschool when I entered high school. Teenagers terrify me, and I am one.
Am I weird yet? :D

When I visited my local high school in 11th grade to take the PSAT, I shook. Like shaking, like when one is cold. I was scared of all the people. ;u;
When I visited that same high school to take the SAT, I shook less, but actually felt awful because I got lost like a stupid person and ended up entering the test room last, which meant like everyone looked up and watched me come in and sit down. It made me uncomfortable. Plus also being around so many people my age. (From 6th-8th grade, I went to a small one-room school, and was always the oldest, so...)

But even if I have social anxiety...
I get lonely very, very easily. It's the whole reason I took up tutoring kids from my old school in my 10th & 11th grades. I felt lonely at home. But then my mom got remarried and we moved. So I was lonely again! D:

Wow, this is sounding like a very depressing story haha, it'll get better, I swear!

So I looked up homeschooling resources online, and eventually somehow found a link to Homelink. And holy-moly, when I read about it, did it sound awesome.

Going to class once a week to be taught by a real teacher! Score.
No running or yelling in the hallways! Yay! (I'm a quiet person, er, loud noises both irritate and scare me.)
No hugging between boys and girls? I'm safe! Yay. No contact with scary boys!
Doesn't sound like a big program, probably aren't a lot of kids, yeah!

... lol then I signed up. And went to visit.

KIDS RUNNING UP AND DOWN THE STAIRS.
BOYS AND GIRLS INTERMINGLING EVERYWHERE.
NOISE, NOISE, NOISE.
LIKE 250 TEENAGERS.
ASDJFLSKJALSKDJFSF.

Man, when Mrs. Mullins brought us down to the cafeteria hall thing, I was terrified. Then she called Yuka & Kalli over to say hi and I was like "n-no no no it's okay it's fine I don't have to talk to anyone I'm just here to see please don't make me say hi oh god" and I was hiding behind my mom lol, who told me to shush.

I mean seriously I looked awful my hair was a mess and everything. :( I didn't know I'd actually see people...!

Then on my first day I sat by myself. I didn't wanna intrude on other peoples' tables with my lowly presence.
Then they all came over to me >:C And I inwardly freaked out. Like, jeepers, WHAT ARE YOU PEOPLE DOING HERE DO YOU REALIZE YOU ARE SITTING WITH A SOCIAL UN-BUTTERFLY. A SOCIAL CATERPILLAR. A SOCIAL UM... is larvae before caterpillar?

But I clicked with Yuka & Kalli since they liked anime and the like. c: Uwuwuwu.
And became intimidated by Keaton. :( TOO FRIENDLY AND FORWARD AND QUESTIONS LEKRJELARKG like the "so what do you honestly think of us" one
But it's ok.
Because today I realized I'm happy coming to school every Tuesday & Thursday.

Today!

Today I asked someone if their calculator was new instead of just assuming it (which I normally do because I'm too scared I'll talk and they won't hear me and I'll feel like ignored and just alerkjge;g)
Today, I stated the question I needed help on, instead of being scared of looking stupid. >:U And got the question right in the first place. Way to go self.
Today, I smiled at someone I didn't know~
Today, when Janelle said hi to me, I happily said hello back! :D I actually surprised myself then, I thought "uh woah that came out happier than I intended"
Today, I touched Kellin's poodle hair. :I Not sure if this is positive but oh well.
Today, I asked Stetson what classes he was in instead of just guessing and wondering forever. He also told me my shirt was nice.
Today, I told Yuka something really embarrassing about myself and she didn't judge me and we laughed about it and laughed some more.
Today, Yuka showed me weird things in her magazine that made me choke on my food because they were so ridiculously funny and just alkrgje;rgk
Today, someone told me I had nice pants on. Sparkly. xD
Today, I asked Keaton for a hug. |･ω･｀) Fun fact: I love hugs. Fun fact #2: I have a slight phobia of males due to some bad experiences I had when I moved here. So yay, progress! >:V

;3; Homelink makes me happy.
I'm not so shy anymore. (ﾟ▽ ﾟ)
I'm not so scared anymore.

It feels like an accomplishment.~

If you read all of that, srsly come here so I can give you a virtual hug. c: -hugs-

As for rl hugs we will have to see about those lol. >.<;

that one post about shiny calculators and doodles in pen

So I finally got off my lazy bottom and followed everyone else~ Yay. 25 blogs total. (`ヘ`；) Though, Tyler isn't a Modern lit student so just 24 I guess maybe. And added everyone to the sidebar. It's long, but oh well~ It's in order of whoever updated most recently. I hope I got all the URLs right. That would be embarrassing if I got one wrong or forgot one or ended up accidentally adding a stranger...

; - ; To be honest, I'm scared about the commenting on people's entries part. Just a little.
What if I say something offensive or stupid... D:
I can't go and hide on the internet. I'll have to see you all in real life at one point or another. （´・ω・｀）

Also lol I feel like my URL is childish compared to everyone else's... probably 'cause of the fairy part. But oh well! I'm a childish person. I'm okay with that. It's kinda amusing. Like, the look people give me when I tell them I'm a senior? Priceless. :'D

Ehhh, my blog stats are informing me I have visitors from Canada and Russia. What? Why?
Hello to you guys too, I guess! Sorry I don't know French or Russian though. I tried both, French was fun but Japanese & Mandarin were more fun. First lesson of Russian, I took one look at the characters and one listen to the word, and exited the program lol whoops.

哎呀．．．

My graphing calculator arrived in the mail today~ ヾ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ I think it's shiny. And huge. My goodness, I didn't know calculators could be so big. Czech it out, yeah?

Please excuse the embarrassing photo quality, I'm too lazy to get my real camera out so I used my phone. `w`

Now I can finally do math without so many issues. =A= Been using iPhone calculator and that's been such fail.

Oh!

We're going to Columbia this weeeeekend which wouldn't be so bad, but it's camping. I don't like camping. (Even though we have an RV, OTL. I'm sorry. I still don't like it.) I don't like going outside... My idea of fun is staying inside and drawing or playing the piano (but my mom sold off our old piano and didn't buy a new one, so I'm just... -sigh-)

The only good point about going to Columbia is that they have good bubble tea!! ~ Ah yes. I wonder how many cups I'll buy when we go. I miss bubble tea. Being from California (helloooo, Asians and Mexicans everywhere), I remember when I used to have a couple cups a week. So getting bubble tea at all out here is a blessing. ♪(ﾉ´∀｀*)ﾉ Especially if it's good (because yes, I have tasted bubble tea out here that wasn't... that great). I could drink the stuff everyday if I was able. Drink it like other people drink coffee or soda. XD Ah, but it'd be expensive.

Unless I was in Hong Kong or Asia. Milk tea and stuff is really cheap there. And really good. (oﾟ▽ﾟ)o Well, at least it was when I was in Hong Kong. The milk tea I bought from the airport in Japan was good & cheap too though, so I have high hopes. ヾ(＾ー＾)ﾉ

Yesterday, I was doodling in modern lit class (should I admit that here or will it get me in trouble...) on my notes, and ah, I think my drawing turned out pretty nicely for a pen doodle.

Normally pens are my enemy in writing, so I should suck at drawing with them... But there are occasional days when I'm okay with them, I guess. Just... smudging everywhere. My hand was all inky afterwards too because I'm not careful where I put my hand.

But yeah. ;3; It's cute enough for me I think.

Hum.
Both my kitties are sleeping on my bed. It's cute, and I don't feel lonely, but it's a bit crowded. xD And I have a double bed too. But there are books and laundry everywhere, so the added kitties make it...

Well, I'm sitting in a corner of the bed, lol. My legs hurt from being folded up and stuff. I want to go play. But nooo. I'm busy studying for the ACT. ; - ; I will kill all those tests then play all I want, yes. Play and play and have fun .... doing college applications. OTL Nooo. But after... February or March! Then I can play. Not a lot, but a bit more than now...~

Aaaannnd I think I will go get a snack.

Nutella and graham crackers again! In the past few weeks I have introduced some individuals to the delicious treat that is Nutella. I feel accomplished. And sort of like a dork now that I've written that here. Oh well! Share the love of hazelnut chocolate spread, はいはい～

Byebye~ (o*･ω･)ﾉ

... welp.

Mrs. Musick sent all the urls so far out for everyone who's made a blog in Modern lit...
and I feel like I wrote way much, looking at everyone else's posts. ;w; Bluuh. This is what blogging for 5 years gets me. XD

But yep.
But man, how am I gonna add everyone to my sidebar... (that's what I was planning to do but errr it'll stretch like a lot...)

Ah well!
/goes to do it anyways
/ .... later because I'm lazy right now I wanna draw instead
For newcomers:

你好, こんにちは、＆　よろしくおねがいします～

( Hello, hello, & please treat me favorably~ ヾ(＾ー ＾)ﾉ)

Hehehe, it's weird using gifs off of tumblr.

Hi, hello, こんにちは, 你好, salutations~

... okayyyy, I know what you're thinking. (if you're one of my classmates, that is. Or Mrs. Musick. if not, nevermind.)
The blog wasn't supposed to be made until Monday, and my first post wasn't supposed to be until Tuesday.
But I was really really excited, actually. (ﾟ▽ ﾟ) I love blogging. I have like four or five blogs at the moment. (Before you ask, no, you can't see them. They all vary in levels of personal and dorky.) And in the last five years I've had about... um, six or seven (that I currently don't use anymore). I don't know, I just find it way easier than making a normal physical journal? Since before, everytime I tried to keep a diary diary, my family would always find it and read it, thanks. Plus I know HTML/CSS, so prettying up a website is way easier than prettying up a physical book! ┐('ω`；)┌ Plus I can type way faster than I can write (but then again, that's common in this day and age, I think?), so my thoughts go on the page a lot smoother and stuff.

So, um! First post is supposed to be about writing.

Am I a non-writer, a diarist, a writer, or an artist?

At first, I thought a diarist, but after some thought, I realized I like people reading what I've written (as long as it's recent. If it's old, STAY AWAY). Be it a personal journal or whatever. So maybe a writer. It really depends. When I used to write fanfiction, I loved it when people read and commented on my stuff. ...Except for my friends. Or more like, if you were someone I knew, I definitely didn't want you to read it.  I found it embarrassing.（´・ω・｀）Which is why I always wrote fanfiction under an alias... I still do sometimes l-lolorz.

Whereas when I wrote personal blog entries and stuff, I'd rather have my friends read it. And then I do roleplay (like written roleplay), I do like when people people tell me they like to read it. (ﾉ´∀｀*)ﾉ Which is why I'm wondering why I got so paranoid when people I knew read my fanfic. =A=; They're like... similar. Except in roleplay you're controlling the thoughts/actions of one character and in fanfic you control the thoughts/actions of all the characters. Maybe that's why. I'm scared my friends will think I write their characters wrong. Bluuuuh. :'D /sensitiveroleplayerproblems.

tldr; I'm a writer. Lol.

But I do love writing in general. I'm not the greatest at it, but I don't think I'm awful either. I just make silly mistakes a lot. >w> I know what I'm doing, really! I just forget all the time sometimes. Painting a picture with words is more interesting than doing it with paint. I love people who can write well. *u*

Um, next question was how do I feel about blogging, but I answered that up top already. ^w^ ~
I think I will try to write about positive things about my day. =3=9 Even if my day sucked. Because I need more positive things. Yep.

And now I go back to doing other boring subjects.